Wow ..how a year can just fly by ?

I have still been having some profound and amazing experiences, but as you can see have not been writing them down. Sorry for the delay......here's a quick update:

In July 2010 i had a miscarriage my first miscarriage after having three healthy babies. It was called a missed miscarriage and this is were the body still thinks you are pregnant but the baby has died and not left the mothers womb. This baby was very much love and wanted and we had made so many dreams around this little soul. I had a gut feeling/ intution thats things were not right but i choose to ignore them until i went for a private scan and this is were we learnt on Sat 24th July 2010 that our dear baby had died. This has been the hardest thing i have had to go through. However despite the grief and sadness i felt i could try again for another baby only to then go on to have a natural miscarriage on Christmas day 25/12/10. Many amazing things happen during this sad time and i was able to feel the support of the angels and my guides. I felt that in the end i was truly blessed to have suffered from such a loss, as it made me thankful for all that i have in my life : My family, my three wonderful children and my loving partner. I also saw the lack of compassion for mothers/mother to be who had suffered a miscarriage but felt great relief from the miscarriage ass.

Frozen Shoulder:
After a year of physiotherapy...my shoulder is 99% better...its so nice having a arm that is pain free....what have i learnt from it all.....all things/ emotions/hurts/pain clear when the time is right....and these things can not be rushed.

Frozen Shoulder

The latest update on my frozen shoulder is......its still being very persistent! I have been having regular crystal and reiki treatments and still it persist. Ive been told what you resist ~ persists.!! I do however feel this frozen shoulder is now connected to a past life issue and after reading a great book by Diana Cooper " A time for transformation" feel that it is perhaps another path i need to go down in order to heal the shoulder. I am seeing a lovely lady on Monday 1st Nov 2010.

Lucy May my beautiful daughter

My daughter who is 11 years old decided in May 2010 to go and live with her dad. Although this has been very hard for me to accept and there has been a lot of pain and hurt expressed along the way.....i now feel that this is her journey and that as a mother we have to trust and let them go.(even at a early age of 11) She is very angry towards me and tells me she hates me all the time. I have tried to show her love in return, however this in practice is very hard. I was told by a lovely lady (Ann-Marie) that anger is a cry for love and these wise words went straight to my heart and i felt sadness that my daughter did not feel loved. I do see Lucy every now and again and i can see so much of me in her. (stubborn, and cut of from her emotions.) I ask that time will heal the situation and that she will grow and learn to let go of her anger.

The very same thing happen a year prior with my oldest son James, only he was gone for six weeks and i knew James was angry but not for long and that he missed me and wanted to come home. James learnt a valuable lesson :- he had to asked his dad to allow him to return back to me knowing his dad would show a lot of anger in return. James is now 14 years old and refuses to see his dad since Lucy has gone. His reasoning is that he feels his dad puts Lucy first and perhaps feels not so special.

Interesting Treatment with Lynda Jakiro

Yesterday i met up with a lovely friend who is an Allergy and Complementary Therapist called Lynda who kindly did allergy testing on me. I was tested for loads of things and amazing enough Candida showed up as 20% which is quite low but she felt the strict diet i am on would have had a huge impact on the percentage outcome. I also tested high for salt (100%) so Ive now got to avoid salt for next three days. Funny that i never add salt to my food and can only presume is due to all the added salt found in processed food i had eaten over the past. Antibiotics came up high. I have also got to avoid cooked or raw vegetables for 30hrs ~ I had a lovely organic steak last night with rice noodles. We also talked about being a vegetarian and that i had in fact tried being one several months ago and felt very unwell not eating meat. I have since found out some thing very interesting that certain blood types ie 0 need to eat meat. If only we could live of the land and kill what is needed like the Indians!
Finally Lynda did some Ancestral Clearing and information came up on my mothers side dating back 14,582 years ago and then she checked for lost souls three were picked up and....wait for it....i was checked for.......PSYCHIC ATTACK!!!
Three from this life and alive plus one from this life dead. Twenty one from past lives, my goodness Ive been around a long time. The main thing that sticks out for me is that we checked for how and what was being used for psychic attack and guess what we found ~ Stones, psychic stones had been used. There is a process that needs to be done over a period of time to clear all psychic attacks. I started this yesterday and it will be interesting to see how things are after its finished. My arm felt alot better during the treatment.
More and more people are coming under psychic attack and theres quite alot of information on the internet about it.
www.fieldsofhealth.co.uk

Physiotherapy

I have been having Physiotherapy for three weeks now and there seems to be some improvement. Francis thinks I have a frozen shoulder with a trapped nerve. Ive been given a few arm exercises to do between appointments and these are quite painful but I have to keep the arm moving. The main thing is im no longer on pain killers and the pain only lasts about 5mins.

Modern Meditation Workshop

Every now and again i have this huge sense that i need to be learning new things or going to new places.....and it needs to be done A.S.A.P. I had the good fortune to come across a lovely lady called Dipti Paul who was holding a Modern Meditation Workshop in Stroud. Although Stroud was a three hour drive away this didn't seem to matter to me and i had made up my mind that i would go if Dipti didn't get an even number for her course. It turns out the day before the workshop was due to take place a space needed to be filled and so i phoned Dipti and confirmed i would be attending her workshop. I had to sort the tom(sat nav) out and buy a yoga mat. It was really funny because I needed a power cable for the tom tom as I had some how broken the original one and Stuart my boyfriend said don't worry his friend Rex has one and i can borrow it! He went on to say he wont need it he never goes out!! However I knew otherwise....sure enough....he phoned Rex and he did in fact need his cable and so we both spent that evening rushing to Halfords and Tescos to find a cable.

The next morning i set off at 6.15am to Stroud, M23, M25, M4 and A419 the journey was perfect a smooth safe ride. The venue was at Hawkwood College which is set within 42 acres of land. I met some lovely people and learnt some new tools to help me meditate. Dipti was an amazing teacher and was able to show how easy meditation could fit into busy life styles. Every thing was perfect apart from my arm....it was really playing me up during the meditations. Dipti talked us through a meditation which help us scan our bodies for illness,pain or issues. I tried to scan my arm and all i could see was slabs of rocks within it?

Seven main chakras

The names of the seven main chakras and the master organ that each one governs is as follows: